Emotionally I'm spent

So the last few days have been an emotional and logistical roller coaster. As with Brynn we had a trip to labor and delivery which left us with more questions than answers.

For the past few weeks at my weekly appointments I've had protein come up in the urine samples. The doctor seemed especially concerned yesterday and told us that if I had any abdominal pain, headache or blurred vision that I needed to call and possibly come in. So this AM I was feeling all of the above. We were told to come straight to labor and delivery. Being 38 weeks we were told that most likely we would be having our baby girl as any protein was no good and since this one is baked completely they wouldn't take any risks.

Basically 4.5 hours later we were discharged and told that all my labs were on the high side of normal but normal none the less so at this point we are to continue on and allow natural course. I have to be rechecked Friday but other than that all is well.

Of course baby E is good but as for me, emotionally spent. This pregnancy has been rough. Partially my own doing (moving us approximately 3000 miles in 3 months), and partially it's just harder being pregnant a second time. And when you add in going from low risk home birth to c section to moderate risk hospital birth it is what I would call a roller coaster. Basically I'm done. I know there is a light at the end of this but at the moment it seems a bit dim.

Thank you to all our incredibly committed and kind friends and family. Your kind words, positive thoughts, comedic interludes and prayers are all welcomed and appreciated. As always we are humbled by the support and thankful for your kindness.

So what now? Try to wait and be patient. Babies come when they are ready. She definitely takes after her sister and will NOT be rushed by anyone. I'm going to try and zen out on this. It will end. My favorite pregnancy quote, " Pregnancy takes commitment, it's like getting a tattoo on your face."

And so another chapter begins...

It's been so great to be back in CA. We've really begun to settle in. We have a great place, good support system and it seems like everything is falling into place.

After our regular weekly OB appointment we were told that although we cannot have our planned home birth we will be able to have a regular hospital birth. It really was an answer to our prayers. It's really all in Gods hands.

Now comes the waiting...baby E will be here and soon our little family of 3 will be our completed family of 4. It's scary and exciting. Until we meet again....

California at Last

Not even sure how to start this...we re home! The last 3 months have been a whirlwind of emotion, change, upheaval, deep contemplation, boat load of prayer and most of all humbling. We have gone from living in Reno, moving to Texas, to moving back to Graeagle.

We moved to Reno shortly after Brynns birth so that we could have easier access to the amenities of living "in town" as well as ease for Bryan during his student teaching. We were extremely fortunate to make some excellent friends and be closer to Bryan's parents. We however never imagined that Reno would be our final destination. The job market for Bryan was abysmal and it's just not where we saw our lives.

We looked into several opportunities in several states and after much consideration and prayer we decided to take a huge leap of faith and move to Texas. It was a huge undertaking and it was fraught with difficulties. Once we were there we had some difficulties adjusting to the politics, social aspects and living in the Bible belt. My work was good but we just didn't really fit in. Needless to say we believe it was definitely more than happenstance that my current job offer came along. When it did we prayed about it alot and although it would mean yet again uprooting our lives we decided that our real "home" was and always will be California.

The journey back was difficult but definitely worth it. We are truly home. We miss some of the niceties and pleasantries of Texas but as they say, Texas is for Texans. We wish all of the people we met there all the best ad hope they reciprocate the thoughts.

So as we spend this last forum weeks as a family of 3 we re excited to get settled and look forward to the coming Fall. Thank you again to all of our family and friends for all you've done for us.

Until next time....

Well it's been a hectic few weeks! After much deliberation, prayer and contemplation we have decided that we are moving back to CA! I was offered an unbelievable job and given the trials and tribulations of we've faced since moving we decided that perhaps this was a sign that we needed to make a change.

We are now in the process of moving back to CA. It will be great to be near familiar places, friends and family again. Don't get me wrong, the people we've met here have been so welcoming and nice but let's face it, Bryan and I, we are California to the bone! We miss our Bear Flag Republic!

Can't wait to see the ocean, mountains, trees and most of all cool fresh breeze! CA or BUST!

Sometimes the road is long and the journey is intense.....

In the past 30 days we packed up our lives, moved over 1400 miles, unpacked our house, I started a new job, entered the last trimester of my pregnancy, Brynn turned one year and we've begun the settling process.

Texas has been a huge change for us. Perhaps more than we realized. Luckily we've all had Bryan as our rock, our stabilizer, our greatest supporter. Thanks Bryan. We love you.

This journey, who knows where it leads.....we shall see.

Wow....it's been awhile.....

So Brynn is now almost 7 months old! She is sitting up on her own, crawling, babbling, she actually said Dada a couple of times and is pulling herself up to stand. Basically she is getting big and getting into everything. Each day we wait to see what new trick she'll master.

Bryan finished his student teaching in December and has since become a stay at home Daddy while he finishes up his Master's degree. He will begin the job hunting in the Spring for next school year, keep your fingers crossed!

I have begun covering my friend's maternity leave for the school district in Fallon, Nevada. 2 days a week I drive approximately 1 hour outside of Reno and complete evaluations, observations, and supervision of the COTAs that are currently working out there. I miss Brynn but it's good to be back in the swing of things :) And since it's a special assignment the $$$ isn't bad either.

In the last few months we have steadily been finding our way as a family of 3. We've grown and are doing well. This weekend we have a lot of family and friends in town for Brynn's baptism. We are excited to welcome her into the family of God and look forward to sharing this time with our family and friends.

Until we meet again....happy trials.

Oooppsss skipped a couple of weeks!

So....tomorrow Brynn will be three months old! I cannot believe the time has gone by so quickly. We have had our little one for a quarter of a year. Yes the sleepless nights do get to you, you sometimes wonder how it would feel to go somewhere without counting diapers, asking if I have extra outfits "just in case" and how good it feels to get a nap in the afternoon yet we cannot imagine our life without our little peach.

Bryan is about two weeks away from fully taking over all the classes in his student teaching. He is doing such a great job and although he has a lot of work he helps out so much with Brynn so I can retain some of my sanity.

We are currently staying at the Peppermill in Reno, we had two unused free nights so while the weather is nice we decided to make use of the pool on a little staycation!

Thanks so everyone for your support these last 3 months. Your words of encouragement, meals, voices of reason, all are appreciated! Here is to many many more months of fun!

Until we meet again.....